The other day a disturbed person left a lengthy, disturbing, threatening comment on an old post on my blog. I know it says a lot more about his/her issues than about me, or my family, or autism, and that he probably copied and pasted the same rant on lots of related blogs to try to get his ugly voice out there, but it still upset me, and I can't get it out of my head.
I do not want to print this person's words, but I will summarize: the writer is a Republican white supremacist who believes autism is the result of failed/inattentive parenting, stemming from one's own spoiled childhood. He proudly confesses to the crime of having punched an autistic child in the face and having gotten away with it. After informing me several times how intelligent he is, he swears he will "kill ALL of you" and signs off with a "Fuck you, Amen."
There is no way I could ever hope to get through to someone with so much hatred in his heart. It upsets me to think that there are people like this in the world, so filled with ignorance and bigotry; it terrifies me that my child might someday meet one of them and become the object of their hostility. There are some real sickos in the world, and I have no idea how to protect my child from them.
And more than the death threat, more than his disgusting use of the N-word to describe our President, more than any of the other awful things this man wrote to me, what bothered me most was: what kind of monster runs around punching children in the face? What has to go wrong in one's life that this becomes a justifiable action?